23 June 2013 - 13u20
I have to write a report of 5 book for 5 minutes speaking in front of the class... I'm already nervous even when I have that Tuesday, and it's now Sunday....
I don't want to... Like always I'm gonna fail again...
zondag 23 juni 2013
zaterdag 22 juni 2013
22 June 2013 - 22.20
I'm sad...
Today I saw that best friend of 4 à 5 years ago. It was really hard to see her, because after so many years I finally accepted that I couldn't be her best friend anymore and that we couldn't see each other. We just totally missed a click between each other... Maybe it's because we both made a huge wall around our hearts... At least, I do have a huge wall around my heart, which makes it hard to be friends with people. And I don't really knew when I should call someone a friend...
I'm sad and I'm tired that it goes over and over again... I don't want to go on anymore... I got a bad grade back today a 4,9/10 which means that you failed pretty much. I'll always be a failure, I've always been a failure and I'll always be... I literally see no future for me, I'm just a boring person who is only on the computer, and really has no life. When someone is over here, I have no idea what to do or something. I'm just a horrible human being...
And awhile back I thought about something, and it's still struggling in my head... What if this is all a dream? Like when I was born that's when I finally 'slept'. And then when I die I finally wake up. That this all is dream... So I actually hope that I wake up soon...
Man, these things are struggling me so much because I don't know the truth about it... I think I'm going insane with these kind of things... What if everything around me is just nothing. Like it's just a dream. There's NOTHING... It's all just a stupid dream...
ugh.
I'm sad...
Today I saw that best friend of 4 à 5 years ago. It was really hard to see her, because after so many years I finally accepted that I couldn't be her best friend anymore and that we couldn't see each other. We just totally missed a click between each other... Maybe it's because we both made a huge wall around our hearts... At least, I do have a huge wall around my heart, which makes it hard to be friends with people. And I don't really knew when I should call someone a friend...
I'm sad and I'm tired that it goes over and over again... I don't want to go on anymore... I got a bad grade back today a 4,9/10 which means that you failed pretty much. I'll always be a failure, I've always been a failure and I'll always be... I literally see no future for me, I'm just a boring person who is only on the computer, and really has no life. When someone is over here, I have no idea what to do or something. I'm just a horrible human being...
And awhile back I thought about something, and it's still struggling in my head... What if this is all a dream? Like when I was born that's when I finally 'slept'. And then when I die I finally wake up. That this all is dream... So I actually hope that I wake up soon...
Man, these things are struggling me so much because I don't know the truth about it... I think I'm going insane with these kind of things... What if everything around me is just nothing. Like it's just a dream. There's NOTHING... It's all just a stupid dream...
ugh.
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