24 June 2013 - 19u07

I fucking hate myself, you know? I'll never be good enough with my grade. I got a bad grade for history which really bothers me because I don't know what I did do wrong..

And I'm also pissed off because of my mom, she was like: "How is that thing going what you have to do tomorrow?". Like she does now care about my grades. In the last 4 fucking years, she never cared about it. She was like: Eline does it well on school, Eline is a good kid at school, Eline has good grades, Eline can do everything on her own, Eline has many friend at school.
But seriously man, fuck it... She still thinks that I'm totally okay, that I'm totally fine. I wish I was fine and not living with the fact that there never has gone one day that I didn't think about suicide...

I hate being alive...